Now that Holy week is over, I miss being around the church. During Holy Week I was constantly going to Mass, and Benediction. Where now that it's over, I miss it. Not just the Mass, but just being in the presence of my God. I think that's where I'm really drawn to a catholic college, or one with primarily catholic attendance.
I love the idea of just going to the church to sit before God whenever I need to. Not to mention the acceptance that I will feel being around all fellow catholics who believe the same things I do, and are going through the same growth as I am. Rather than at the high school where praying at lunch is not accepted, and people shoot me funny looks when I talk about Mass, or they see my Saint Augustine medallion. I see myself, and my other catholic friends getting ridiculed by all sorts of people for their faith, some even catholic.
Now, this doesn't turn me down, I see it as an influence to pray more and to not hide my faith, but to educate and share it with others. My big issue I'm trying to fight right now is to not let them make me upset, and to remain loyal to my dignity and to be patient and sympathetic towards them for they do not yet know the real Truth.
Right now I am really looking at Mount Saint Marys college. I know I still have a few years, but I am 99% certain that I will be attending a catholic college, or catholic dominated college. (If you would like to check out St. Marys college, the link is on the side bar) I also like the idea of going to a priest if you need one, just to think, and talk with. Especially, if the priesthood is a definite option for me right now (as it has been for the past 3-4 years).
I feel so comfortable at church. I could just sit in a pew and think for hours. I don't know how I could survive if I were attending a college where I couldn't do this. I try to go to everything that is offered from the liturgies of the church, and yet, I still want more. Like I said in my other post, I've started the Liturgies of the Hours and that has helped feed my hunger somewhat. I feel that I am constantly fighting (from the media, school, and other people) to put God and Mass just for the hour on the weekends, where it should be the entire focus of everything I do.