In this post I may sound like I'm talking directly to YOU (the reader)-- but really, all that I write is being said right back to myself.
This Sunday I will be serving my first TLM High Mass. I know it's not much different than a low Mass (which I've served several times) but I'm still looking forward to it. I haven't served in a really long time. In the past I used to not want to, but as things change and our outlooks turn from gloom and self despair to courage and faith, I am really starting to miss it.
I feel so connected at Mass. At every Mass I go to I don't want it to end. I feel a calling to be at Mass, and yet, a feeling of unworthiness to be within God's presence so intimately as the TLM presents itself. Mass is what keeps me going; in my spiritual life, emotional life, and even in how much I write on here. I've been up and down with my motivation to write and talk about Catholicism for a long time now. But I'm getting back into it.
Easier said than done. ;-)